Thursday, October 23, 2014

Things dangerous to come to

Last night, Mom, Mozzie and I watched The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. Well, Mozzie mostly just stared longingly at the bag of popcorn. The storyline was mediocre. But there were adventures and a good soundtrack and that's all I really need from a movie. And, even though they mentioned it ad nauseum, there was this quote:

"To see the world, things dangerous to come to, to see behind walls, draw closer, to find each other, and to feel. That is the purpose of life."

Which is the truest thing I've ever heard.

I am 33 years old today. I feel simultaneously as if I have all the time in the world and no time at all left, as if I've had so many amazing adventures but the best adventures are yet to come. And that those best adventures are going to be the most dangerous, the ones at which I'm most afraid of failing.

I know that in the grand scheme of life, the universe and all things, I am very, very tiny. Inconsequential. Impermanent. Still, I hope that my time here, however long it is, leaves some net positive impact on someone or something. I still have a lot of work to do in that regard. I have rescued one abandoned puppy and made him feel at least safe enough that he no longer needs Doggy Prozac. But I killed three bugs in my house this year and inadvertently unleashed a canine hit-man on a fourth, so in the insect world I am a serial killer. Though I have fed what feels like 1,000 mosquitoes this year alone. So maybe I'm a benevolent serial killer? Like Dexter? I try not to kill things but sometimes it's really hard. Like last night, I ordered a veggie burger at Gate House but they mistakenly brought me a turkey burger, so I had to send it back and I don't know what became of it after that.

If you're reading this, I promise not to kill you. But seriously, infinity of thanks and hugs for being part of my 33 years of life and ridiculousness. You are the center of the cookie, which everyone knows is the very best part. Let's have 6.02 x 10^23 more adventures!

Lyric of the moment: "And I almost didn't find you. And I almost lived without you. There is nothing in this world I'd rather do than live with you...If you ever fear someday we might lose this, come back here. To this moment that will last. And time can go so fast. When everything's exactly where it's at, its very best..."

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